what?

it’s so easy.

how do i know you’re not doing the exact same thing that i’m doing at that exact same moment? or any moment spent apart for that matter?

i don’t know. i’m feeling very uncomfortable.

apple of my eye

i don’t usually drink enough wine to get drunk but anyway.

spent the night in mercer and i now have finals in a few hours!! i’m cramming my butt off, i need major assistance. we’ll see how it goes, what with history being absolutely un-bs-able and all.

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whatever you like.

Listen, are you breathing just a little,
and calling it a life?…
For how long will you continue to listen to those dark shouters,
caution and prudence?
Fall in! Fall in!

i was scrounging around for sleep all weekend. it’s like my body knows that it’s due for some major sleep-in action. and it’s true, spring break is just around the corner. i cannot–cannot–wait to really reunite with my bed again. even for just a week.

i spent friday night in mercer island, where i took a nap at 6pm and didn’t wake up until 830. i did some reading and some lounging around, and then i passed out at 1030. i woke up at around midnight to see that the lights were all off already, and so i just drifted back to sleep until about 910am, when it was time to get ready for work. i haven’t worked a saturday in a while, but it was okay overall. i talked to my boss about my potentially new schedule for next quarter, and instead of being somewhat pissed that i can only work 3 days a week now, he was actually glad because he needed somebody good (lol) to work long hours on friday, saturday and sunday.

although i’m still a little apprehensive over working on both weekend days again. we’ll see what happens.

so saturday night i was still so tired but i tried to watch p.s i love you with my roommate. i couldn’t finish it because luiza called, and even if she hadn’t i would have just passed out early into the movie anyway. there was a little bit of snow when i woke up on sunday morning, which quickly turned into slush because the rain just would not stop. the entire weekend was just wet and cold and not pretty.

then i went home to have dinner with my roomies at the bistro, which we have not done in a particularly long while.

now i’m typing away as this blip of a quarter comes to a close. i’m nervous and tired and uneasy and just over it.

i did not do the most stellar job, there were so many things going on, my body was refusing to cooperate, and i’m pretty sure somebody stole february while i wasn’t looking. it’s trying to do the same with march, but at this point, i don’t really care anymore.

i feel so zapped out. it’s like every quarter is a trial and error to see how well or badly my new work-study schedule irons out. it’s weird.

and i think almost everybody i know has a gripe with this quarter. my roommates, my coworkers, etc. it just hasn’t been a good 2.5 months i guess. so sad.

well anyway, now i’m just looking forward to my sleep. i guess that’s kind of sad too. but i think sleep is good. i love my sleep. and i’m gonna have it in a week.

i even forgot that austin had a thing at rainier beach last night. i just simply passed out in the midst of our text conversation. not that i was seriously planning to go out at 10pm on a sunday anyway. but yea. at this point sleep sounds WAY more appealing than anything.

oh yea, i had SUCH a vivid dream last night. it was so odd but what struck me was just how VIVID it was. i don’t really have time to type it down right now but hopefully i can still remember it for later.

philosophy is calling me.

to.do:

1. laundry
2. history essay(s)
3. spanish essay
4. philosophy essay/final
5. meal plan revision
6. order MONSTER sheets for sahand
7. pay bills
8. mail W-2

one more thing, i just realized that with my brother leaving for florida on june 13, i will be alone with my parents this summer. 3 months. alone.
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i really, really don’t know how i feel about that.

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get in the car!!

i do NOT like being rushed in the morning. i absolutely hate it. is it my fault you hit your snooze multiple times and chose to sleep in? NO. so don’t look and talk to me in an exasperated way when you see me sit up on the bed first to try to see who my missed calls were from last night. that only took two seconds, compared to 45 minutes of you slacking off.

and i DIDN’T even want to take your slacking off against you in the first place. i mean, ok you’re feeling lazy, fine, sleep in. but then you attacked me like that. like it was actually my fault that you’re running ridiculously late.

i do NOT like unnecessary pressure. especially not in the morning.

so yes. not too happy of a morning for me. although last night was pretty good. stayed in mercer island, watched ocean’s eleven, then had a spur of the moment trip to dick’s on university and 45th. it was freezing last night. i swore i felt it permeate my bones. just thinking about it makes me..well, feel the cold permeate my bones.

i think it snowed a little too, there was frost this morning on my way back to seattle.

a;oishdnaslkdnasd

i work today. we now have to have our nametags, VISORS, and aprons as uniform staples. what’s next, tacky non-slip clogs??

i feel like a big goober everytime i work now D:

“get in the car!”
“ohmygod” *highly uncontrollable maniacal laughter*

lol.

who needs a handgun when you’ve got a semi-automatic??

funniest thing i’ve ever heard!

shot

it’s a miracle.

after five days of being sick, i was resigned to the possibility that only a week-long bedrest could rid me of my flu. last night, with my condition exacerbated after the FREEZING walk to and from the vagina monologues, i decided to take some benadryl albeit cynically. coincidentally, benadryl was the only medicine i have not taken after all these days of being ill. and coincidentally, i fell asleep with considerable ease AND woke up this morning feeling 200% better. peachy, even.

thank God.

now my head is spinning with all the stuff i have to catch up on.

we accept the love we think we deserve.

this struck me so badly last night that i feel well enough to go to work this morning.

do you like what i give you?

so i ended up going to mercer last night, where i watched forgetting sarah marshall. didn’t quite finish it because it i was ridiculously spent, so i took my nyquil to pass out. i didn’t have the undisturbed sleep i thought i would have; i was tossing and turning so much, feeling hot and cold so easily, and wheezing and hacking away through the night. ugh.

i don’t understand, nyquil would always be able to knock my roommates out.

headed to chaces pancake corral at bellevue the morning after to grab some breakfast. there was a 30 minute wait which i now regret agreeing to because we spent the waiting time walking around in the rain and cold, since the restaurant was way too jampacked. the coffee made me feel better, but i definitely felt my fever coming back as i picked on my bacon and eggs. the pancakes were too much for me; it only took me about one until i was actually ready to go.

went back to mercer island where i somehow chose to busy myself with washing the dishes. there were plans to go up to bellingham but by that time my body just plain..refused. drove back to seattle where, at the most inopportune time, the elevators were down. i tried to wait it out in the lobby a little until it became apparent that they weren’t going to get fixed anytime soon. i had to go through 8 flights of stairs..and honestly that was enough to make my fever skyrocket again. ughhh.

ashley didn’t come home til about 5.30, and until now i’m still bundled in bed, and the elevators still are not fixed. not that i would want to go anywhere right now anyway. but i feel so bad for people who live on 12th and such. :/

so i have about a few hours to recuperate before heading to work at 10am tomorrow. i’ll let them decide where to put me, since my cough isn’t entirely gone yet.

we passed by this new housing development in bellevue way, where the houses are advertised to start at the $700,000’s. it was ridiculous. it reminded me so much of vegas properties..what with the cloned floorplans and absence of real backyards and the fact that your neighbor’s house is literally 6 inches from yours. it was kind of disappointing. i’d like to see how many people actually bite into it.

i told sahand that i know at least 5 people with the exact same floorplan as my house in vegas. never really thought about it until today. it’s pretty weird.

anyway i’m going to go get some water and then maybe resume taking robitussin again. i have to pee, too.

i’m watching the vagina monologues with ashley tomorrow!!

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called in sick at work today.

that’s big chunk of my paycheck bitten off right there.

i know i’m going to regret this. but my goodness i woke up this morning heaving. heaving.